A new start!

I never really write on this blog, it is usually just a little storage space for my poems! Today, However, I am in a chatty mood! It is the 5th of January 2011 and I am feeling so positive about life at the moment. This year is bringing huge changes and I honestly cannot wait to immerse myself in life.

These last few years, I became very unmotivated, numb almost. I lost all ambition and all hope for the future. I had hobbies that I loved, they all just seemed to disappear. I had passions and interests, they all faded away. It was like I had just become a body, an empty shell.

In the last couple of months, my love of live has been reignited. Mostly due to meeting an absolutely wonderful person that has changed my life in more ways than you could imagine. I now wake in the mornings, take a deep breath and smile. I find joy in the smallest things, for example, this morning I went to feed my two dogs, Milly (the smallest of the two) was poking her nose through the fence, each time she did, it made her sneeze! It lifted my heart so much! It is good to know that in times of darkness, there is always a little ray of light waiting to brighten your day. You just have to be willing to open your eyes to see it.

I feel like I have a new page to draw upon, I felt a sense of relief as the new year came in. All I know is that 2011 is going to ROCK!!! I hope it does for everybody else too!

What would it matter?

So, if the blue sky never came home, would we still be happy?

I know I would,

and if the stars never revealed their diamond souls?

and the sun was covered in shadows?

What would it matter,

When you are the one that stills my mind,

the one that reaches out when I'm falling behind...

Sleeping sickness

I've become,
a simple souvenir of someones kill,
like the sea, I'm constantly changing from calm to ill,
Madness fills my heart and soul, as if the great divide could swallow me whole...
Some one come, someone come and save my life,
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead..

Emergency

I think we have an emergency,
I think we have an emergency,
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong,
I won't stop holding on,

So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong,
I won't stop holding on,

This is an emergency,
So are you listening?
I can't pretend I don't see this,

It's really not your fault,
that no one cares to talk about it,
To talk about it...

Cause' I've seen love die way too many times,
When it deserved to be alive,
I've seen you cry way too many times,
When you deserved to be alive...

So you give up every chance you get, just to feel new again...

Rewind

So, tell me how you feel,
You'll need to speak up, I am a little too far away,
But no one said you needed to be close for me to help you,
No one said I couldn't hold your hand,

I could be your no one, I could be your anyone,
I could be anything you need me to be,
I just don't want to live this life all alone,
No , I don't want to pretend I don't miss you in the middle of the night,
You are my morning that threatens my night, and my light house that guides me home so bright,
So darling, please let me take your hand, and I will be whatever you need me to be,
I will take away the pain, I will carry it all by myself, just please don't loosen your grip on me..

When I am not with you, I am frozen in time , You pressed play on my paused life and I never want to rewind, No, I never want to rewind...

I want to feel that breeze through my hair once again, and I want it to be your smile I smile at, I will carry it all honey, I swear I will carry it all... Just don't press rewind, Oh please, don't press rewind....

Nothing in the past has ever compared to this, and nothing in my future ever will, So let's sit together and watch this movie play, Let's watch the bits that make us smile and hold each other at the bits that make us cry, Just stay with me awhile, and don't press rewind....

I couldn't catch myself

I tried,
I tried to stop myself,
I tried to catch myself,
Nothing could prevent me from falling....

Call me guilty, take away my freedom,
I don't care about the punishment,
Just take me to him....

I didn't,
I couldn't try,
I won't ever try,
To not love him, not for one moment in my life...

Midnight forest

The frost biting at my finger tips,
as I gaze up at the tree tops with watery eyes,
I breathe in the cold ice-stricken air, my lungs feel alive, my heart beats slower,
I know I should be scared, but for one moment in my life, I'm not,
I feel the wings growing upon my back, I feel like nothing could ever be wrong,
All the worries that once plagued my mind, are frozen in time,
I become very aware that everything around me is alive, brimming with beauty,
I become aware that my life is very small,
I can hear the leaves dancing, and the crunchy ground under my feet,

I know you aren't here, but I can feel you as I breathe,
I can feel your hand warming the coldness of mine,
I can see you in the beauty that the surrounds me....