I have had such a great few days after a few rough ones, you know when you have a few bumps along the road, it makes the smooth that much sweeter?
"I wish that I could have this moment for life, cause in this moment I just feel so alive..."
I have realised that life is what you make it, if you want to be close with people, you have to be willing to put the effort in. If you want to be the best version of yourself, you have to work at it. To be honest, I don't think there is any feeling like knowing you are being the best you can be. I haven't ever felt like that until lately, I have never pushed myself to be better, I just used to sit there and be unsatisfied with who I was. Always finding excuses for myself.
It feels so good to also actually believe that I can be more.... not just say it. I feel this life pulsing through me now, whereas before, I used live, not be alive. I usually give up when I am not good at something, but once you get past that mind frame, a new world opens up. One where you can achieve anything you want if you put your mind to it, one where excuses are pointless. I know bad things happen to people, things that seem like huge obstacles... but if you can get past that, you can be great. I have had my fair share of issues in the past and I would blame them for my mistakes, but I realised what does this achieve? It just reminds me of my misfortune and also lets them win. If you just say no, I made this mistake because I messed up, you will grow and learn. The mind is such a powerful thing, I think we sometimes forget what it is capable of.
It is a really strange feeling I have right now! I feel almost empowered... in control of myself.
I am grateful for everyday I get and I am not going to waste any more failing myself and others around me, simply because I have "Excuses". Man is nothing but his own self portrait.....
If you want to be better, don't say it, do it.... I started to realise this and I have never felt so good. This is the first time I have actually applied myself to being better, because this time, I really have something I want to be better at... something I want for life....