Rocking your world Friday (Shhh, I know it is Tuesday!!!)

Hi all!!

I am sorry I missed the Friday post, I couldn't get to the internet! (How come every time I try to write internet, I write "Interent"?!)

I have a lot to ramble on about, so here goes! I am absolutely loving being back here, after my breakdown last week, I am feeling so positive. I have realised the only person that can fix me, is me! I feel full of confidence and drive.... now I just have to put it to good use!

I have just started up my own freelance make-up business, it is only in the process, but I am feeling confident so far! I set up a page on FaceBook and all my lovely friends and family are being so supportive! I always put myself down and think I am not good enough to be a freelance artist, but you know what? I am! I trained for months and put everything I had in to that course, I passed my exams with flying colours and I have a passion for it... which is the most important thing! I will post the link below.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/CandyFlash-Make-Up/164408300284020

I am really grateful for my friends and family over here in England. I am going to do a little list of individual gratefuls!

John: For making me feel so at home, and for wanting to spend every minute with me! I thought he would be sick of me by now!! hehe! He is so sweet, and always keeps his promises and most importantly, he always makes me smile! I love the way he has total faith in me, even when I have none at all. I love how passionate he is, and he makes me jealous with his talent for.. well... everything!!! I am so lucky to have him in my life.

Red: For being so welcoming and for making my room all pretty for when I arrived!! She had put up a big mirror for me to do my make-up and she had left loads of teddies for me (She knows I miss all my furry buddies!! hehe!). I am grateful for her being a bit of a taxi woman too! She is an absolute gem and she has a heart of gold. I love having a good giggle with her and we never seem short of them!

Auntie Liz: For always checking up on me, I love her little texts and phone calls asking am I ok!! I really enjoy our cups of tea together. It kinda feels a bit like home away from home with her around! Here she is, being wacky as always!

Virginia: Well, you all know this lady!! I am so grateful to know Virginia, she has been nothing but sweet to me ever since John and I started dating. She has gone out of her way to make me feel like part of the family from day one, I remember the first time I contacted her, I was kind of nervous, but as soon as she wrote back, I knew we would get along wonderfully! I think she is so talented, her Scrapbooks blow my mind, and her love of life is inspiring.

Mel: I love how sweet Mel is, she is an absolute star, I just wish she would believe it! Same as Virginia, she has welcomed me to the family without a second thought. She has let me sleep on her couch and she has driven around town trying to find me a battered sausage and ungodly hours! I love how we can chat about make-up (Both MAC lovers!) I am so glad to know her.

Val: Well, Val has made me feel like part of the family too! I remember the first time I met her, all she kept saying was "Isn't she tall?!?!" "Isn't she beautiful?!?!" She is always great for a laugh, and I am really looking forward to getting to know her better! She makes a mean cuppa and always has biscuits or chocolate waiting for me! WIN!

My family in Ireland: I miss them tonnes, but at the same time, we really make each conversation worth while, we talk and catch up, and it is lovely to know what they are up to and how they are doing! I am so grateful that mum and dad have been so supportive, couldn't have done it without them! I love my brothers too, I can't wait to see them all again!!!  Oooohh and I really miss my doggies, I found some adorable pictures earlier, I will post them below!!

I am so excited for everything! I feel like life is beginning now. As I don't have a job at the moment, I am loving playing the housewife... hehe! Yeah, I love sticking on some music, cooking and cleaning!!

Anyway, I will jump off now, I hope you all have a lovely week!!!

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I know I keep missing out on my Rocking your world Fridays at the moment, I am back and forth and never get a chance to post here at the moment with trying to sort out everything like banks, jobs, doctors etc. I just thought I would come on here and vent for a bit, feeling a little bit stressed at the moment!

I am having one of those days where I feel like I am not in my body, I feel like I can't speak or interact properly, like every time I speak, no matter who is listening, I just can't pluck up the confidence to have a proper conversation. I hate these days.

It is strange how from day to day, things can be so up and down. I know tomorrow will be a new and better day, but today, I feel pretty helpless and low and what is even more annoying is that I can't put my finger on why I feel this way (Probably because I am a nutcase woman! lol!). It is strange how when you wake up in the mornings, you don't know where the day is going to lead you, something incredible could turn up on your doorstep, or you could end up feeling pretty useless and lost.

I have so many dreams, but I can't seem to pick myself up and gather the courage to go about them. I need to learn how to believe in myself, because right now, I feel like I could just curl up in a ball. I never speak about it, hence why I find it much easier to come on here and type (This leads me back to the original point of not being able to pluck up the confidence to have a proper conversation!) I just tell myself it is all OK, that I don't need to talk to anyone and that I am probably just being stupid, but you know, that mentality certainly creeps up and bites you in the ass.

I really envy people who have natural confidence, It is almost debilitating in social situations, I am scared of saying anything just in case I look stupid, because I feel like everything I say is of no value or interest. I know this is ridiculous, because I have people around me who care and who I talk to all the time, but when I feel this way, it is hard to ignore it!

It may be the change that has knocked me, even though I don't feel that is the source of the problem, like I said, I am never sure what it is. If I was to take a wild guess, I would say it is the lack of faith I have in myself sometimes. The fact I never think I am good enough for anything.

Urrghh! even reading that back makes me feel stupid! lol! I just needed to vent and think to myself for a few minutes, sorry if that read was a bit heavy! I will pop back on Friday hopefully with a list full of happies!!

I'm back!!

I have been missing for quite a while, moving country and all that! I am just getting settled now.

I was meant to move on the 31st March, dad walked in to my room on the morning of the 30th and told me I had to change my plans, me in my sleepy state replied with a grumpy "erm... what?".... The ferry that we were supposed to be sailing over on was cancelled due to strong winds and storms at sea. My heart sank.

We spent the next hour or so deciding what to do, since the forecast for the next two weeks were very much the same. So we decided to pack up and travel across that evening, it was a mental, hectic day. We set off for Dublin at 4 in the afternoon, got there about 6:30 ish, boarded the ferry at 8, we arrived in Holyhead at about midnight, then drove to Rotherham. We arrived at John's house at 4:30 in the morning, bless him he woke up to let me and dad in!!

So, here I am. I am so happy! I feel so settled and like life is really looking up!! I am absolutely loving being able to see John all the time, and getting to see red more than twice a year is amazing! I am job hunting at the moment, which is a pain, but it has to be done! I saw a job for a Make-up artist for Benefit, I have applied, so fingers crossed!

I haven't caught up with my Rocking your world Fridays, I will get back on it soon! That is all for now...

x

Rocking your world Friday (well, Saturday.... Shhh!)

Hi everyone!!

I have been missing lately, I know I am a day late, but here goes!

I was over in England for a week, I had such a great time! Went out in Sheffield for Paddy's day, best night ever!! Me and John spent the week chilling, sorting the house and watching movies!! There is a little cat called Gizmo that comes around to the house, such a little sweetheart! Here is a picture of me and John on Paddy's day!

Red, the legend, picked us up and we went out to Wentworth garden centre on Tuesday, it was a beautiful sunny day. I had such a lovely time walking around all the gardens and the craftshop! Here is a picture of me and Red! 

I am going for a lovely meal with my family tonight, a leaving do if you like! Bella Roma, a gorgeous Italian restaurant in Galway! I can't wait! I am going to have penne pasta with pan fried salmon in white wine and Garlic sauce!! Nom!

I am so glad my exams went well, I only have one left now and I am feeling confident!

I am grateful for all the food John brought home from the leavers do he was at, we had so many sandwiches, kept us going for a few days. Ginnie, those muffins you sent were amazing!!!

Just a little list for today, I am all over the place!!! 

I hope you all have a lovely weekend/week!! x x x x x x x x x 

        

Somewhere called home..

I always seemed so far away from home,
With the water dripping off my fingertips,
Nothing seemed near, everything took so long,
But I remember seeing you on the horizon,
Flowers and somewhere to belong,
With your arms open wide,
You seemed in arms length, but I couldn't touch you,
All those dreams of your hand in mine,
Don't seem so unrealistic now....

Now that you are here....
Now that the horizon seems so near...
I will never let this go,
No matter how hard that rain falls down, or how deep I sink,
These fireworks just never stop going off,
The sky is a constant array of light,
Just because I know you are here....

I feel like a boat in your ocean,
without any maps,
Completely lost in content,
You will always be who you are to me...
and you will always know who I am...

You always told me that the world would right itself,
and everything has fallen in to place,
That life would work out,
If you could just see my face...

Stay with me,
Just stay with me,
I never thought I could be this way...

Rocking Your World Friday!!

Hi everyone!!! Friday again, here is my liccle list of gratefuls!!

I am so grateful to be safe, after hearing about the disaster in Japan, it makes you feel so grateful to be safe and sound. It is horrendous to think what the people must be going through there. I think we should all take a minute to think about them and think about how lucky we are to have our homes and our families. The world can be a cruel place sometimes, so we should all count our blessings!!!

I am really grateful for my brother Sean leaving his Friends box set behind, it has kept me busy for the last few weeks!! hehhe! I have watched so much of it now, I feel like I know all the cast personally!!

I love the fact that dad went a bought me my hair dye today, he managed to get me the right one as well! He is a big girl really!! Lol!

I am NOT loving this weather, it has been raining not stop today and the poor doggies have been stuck inside all day! Though I have kept smiling, the sun better come out soon!!

I am grateful to have John, I know I always say it, but I am grateful everyday!! He always gives me giggles and makes me smile. I get to see him next week!! Yayyyy!!! So looking forward to it! I am so happy I am moving over soon, this long run is over soon and I get to see him all the time!!!

I am so lucky to have everything I own! I never say I am grateful for it, but I don't know what I would do without my Make-up, my bed, my clothes!!

I hope everyone has a lovely weekend/ week!!!

x x x x x

Rocking Your World Friday!!

Hi everybody!!!

I looked at the calender, couldn't believe it was the end of the week already!!! Nearly forgot to do my Rocking your world Friday post! So, here goes...

I have been enjoying the lovely weather here for the last few days, it has been so sunny and bright out. I have had the two puppies out playing, I think they enjoyed it even more than me! Here is a picture of me and Milly! Molly wouldn't stay still... hehe!

I am grateful I can finally plan my move to the UK now I have received dates for my exams! The 29th is my last exam, little bit later than I had hoped, but hey, it's something!! So I am packing all my things up and trying to find a job over there! I was looking around online, there is a job in a Candystore that I would love so much.... I suppose I should look for something in Make-Up artistry after spending months working for it.. LOL!

I am loving the Zelda books John got for me, I have "The ocarina of time" and "Majora's Mask", they are amazing! The artwork in it just blows my mind. I have loved The legend of Zelda since I was little, I used to watch my brothers play it. I would sit on my mum's clothes horse and pretend I was the main character, Link!

I am am loving cleaning at the moment, my room looks great now I have got rid of loads of crap! No more clutter! Although, my carpet is a complete mess, whoops!! hehe!

I haven't got too much to write about this week, I am not really doing much, hopefully in a few weeks, my list will be super long!!!! I hope everyone has a lovely weekend/week!!!!! See you all next week!

Rocking your world Friday!!!

Hi everybody!!!!

So it is Friday again! They certainly do fly by, don't they?! Well I haven't done too much this week, but it has been a good one! I had my theory exam on Monday, 50 short questions. I am pretty positive I did well.... or at least passed!!!

I am grateful that I also got another week on my Course work, they told us we had to have it completely finished by last week, then when we got there, they told us we had till next week!! A little bit annoying but got to redo my Scrapbook again! yayyyy!!!

Also, my brother passed on his old Pokemon games, so that is keeping me occupied!! I have always loved those games, so addictive! PIKAAAAA-CHU!!

I also have been really enjoying cooking, I made a really nice tomato chicken casserole and garlic and cheese potato bake! The family seemed to love it! I love cooking with some good music on, it is a real mood lifter! There is nothing like baking cupcakes, and decorating them all pretty!!

I know I am always waffling on about my doggies, but they brighten up my weeks so much!! I don't know what I'd do without them, will really miss them when I leave!

I am really grateful for the fact I have such wonderful people in my life!! Also, the fact that John's family have made me feel so welcome!! They have been so sweet to me, I can't wait to spend some more time with them!! I am so grateful for how happy John makes me too! He is just amazing!!

Now I better go, before I get too soppy!!! hehehe!! I hope everyone has the most wonderful weekend/week!! Bye for now!! x x x x x x x x x x x

Make-up scrap book!

So I thought I would put up a few pictures of my Make-up scrapbook so far! It isn't fully finished yet, but getting there!! It is just a mixture of pictures I have collected over time. I used wrapping paper for the backgrounds, also some engraving card (the black pages) and scratched in the writing, I used jewels and glitter (where would a girl be without them!?) Hope you like!!

Make-up for darker skin/ Smokey eyes

Colourful Make-up and Bridal

Natural beauties and Pop of colour.

The Art of Darkness and Alternative beauty.

Wanton woman and the wolfman

Fantasy

The jesters and the Gypsy.

The Black swan

Kat Von D.. my god I love her!

A bit of skin showing here! Her make up is beautiful though. Next page is the pale lips of the 60's!

It is a little bit rushed, since I have to have it finished for monday, but still, I had fun doing it!!

I feel so alive....

I have had such a great few days after a few rough ones, you know when you have a few bumps along the road, it makes the smooth that much sweeter?

"I wish that I could have this moment for life, cause in this moment I just feel so alive..."

I have realised that life is what you make it, if you want to be close with people, you have to be willing to put the effort in. If you want to be the best version of yourself, you have to work at it. To be honest, I don't think there is any feeling like knowing you are being the best you can be. I haven't ever felt like that until lately, I have never pushed myself to be better, I just used to sit there and be unsatisfied with who I was. Always finding excuses for myself.

It feels so good to also actually believe that I can be more.... not just say it. I feel this life pulsing through me now, whereas before, I used live, not be alive. I usually give up when I am not good at something, but once you get past that mind frame, a new world opens up. One where you can achieve anything you want if you put your mind to it, one where excuses are pointless. I know bad things happen to people, things that seem like huge obstacles... but if you can get past that, you can be great. I have had my fair share of issues in the past and I would blame them for my mistakes, but I realised what does this achieve? It just reminds me of my misfortune and also lets them win. If you just say no, I made this mistake because I messed up, you will grow and learn. The mind is such a powerful thing, I think we sometimes forget what it is capable of.

It is a really strange feeling I have right now! I feel almost empowered... in control of myself.

I am grateful for everyday I get and I am not going to waste any more failing myself and others around me, simply because I have "Excuses". Man is nothing but his own self portrait.....

If you want to be better, don't say it, do it.... I started to realise this and I have never felt so good. This is the first time I have actually applied myself to being better, because this time, I really have something I want to be better at... something I want for life....

Rocking your world friday!

So I missed last week! I was over in England and didn’t get back till late Sunday and was far too tired to catch up, naughty Fi!!


So this is going to cover the last 2 weeks! I am really enjoyed my trip to England, I saw Anathema, they blew my mind!! Had such a good night on Friday with my peeps! Next time I go over, I won’t be coming home!!

I am so grateful for the presents John got me!! I received a beautiful dress and lots of other goodies!! Also, would like to thank Red for her lovely pressies and the cake she made me! CAKE OF DEATH! I got home on Sunday and Dad had made me another cake!! Spoilt to say the least! Hehe 

I am so happy my mock exam went well on Monday, mum was a great model and behaved herself! The examiner seemed pleased with me. I have my real college theory exam on Monday, little bit nervous because I am terrible at studying! Fingers crossed all goes well!

I am grateful for Fish and chips, yes…. Here in Ireland, our fish and chips are terrible. Melanie and John made it their mission to get me fish and chips the first night I arrived and it was amazing!!Then red made it her mission to get me more!! I have a feeling I may put on a couple of stone when I live there.. hehe!

I am really grateful for people’s ability to give things second chances. Sometimes things can get quite difficult and it seems like the easiest thing to do is give up on it, but some things are just worth the effort, worth the time.

I have been going to sleep at 4 or 5 and waking up at 1 or 2 in the afternoon, trying to pass the days. Today, I got up at 9:30 and had a healthy breakfast and went for a walk! I am feeling much better! (Thanks John for kicking me up the ass!) I am waiting for a new start, but that doesn’t mean in the time being I should waste away!

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and week ahead!!

xxxxx

Anathema- Dreaming Light

This is without a doubt one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard...

Suddenly... life has new meaning
Suddenly... feeling is being

And you shine inside
And love stills my mind like the sunrise
Dreaming light of the sunrise

And you shine inside
And love stills my mind like the sunrise
Dreaming light of the sunrise
Dreaming light and ...

I feel you but I don't really know you
I dreamed of you from the moment I saw you
And I've seen the sunrise in your eyes
The sky... the sea... the light

So live your dream beneath the northern horizon
Be at peace, set your heart in flight again
For the light is truth...
The light is you...

Rocking your world friday!

Hi everyone!! This post is a little bit later than last weeks 4 am post!! Feeling a little bit more reasonable this week!

I had a tough week last week, but everything is looking up!! Now for my gratefuls :)

I am grateful for food, I love cooking a really nice meal, sitting down in front of the telly and enjoying! This week I cooked pasta in a white sauce with salmon seasoned with Cajun, it was yummy! Oh, and my favourite, it is like Carbonara... actually, it is more like Macoroni and cheese, let's not kid ourselves.. hehe!

(Yes, you guessed it, I am a pasta lover!)

I am grateful for my internet, I had a panic attack because it stopped working last night!! Thank god it was Ok this morning!! Me and my friends were laughing, thinking of when we were younger and the only thing we used to go on the computer for was Paint!! or sometimes Wordart if we were feeling adventurous!

I am glad Katie (My teacher) said that my portfolio was really good! It put my mind at rest, I was stressing out so much thinking it wasn't good enough!! Now it is just to get it finished!

I am so looking forward to my little holiday to England next week! I am flying over on Wednesday, and on friday... wait for it... I get to see Anathema!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKK!!!! and it is my Birthday on sunday (though, I am leaving on sunday..  boooo) Looking forward to the big cake Red is going to make for me!! ;) I can't wait to see everyone, missed them all so much!! In fact, I am going to put up a link to an Anathema song, have a listen if you get the chance!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY5cTG0wKYE

Actually, whilst we are on the subject of music, here is another track, absolutely stunning!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=paEixi6_ddE

I am grateful for new beginnings, for the chance to start over. Life is continuous learning and we should never close our eyes to it. If we do, well, that is just plain stubborn!!

Now- One of my negatives for the week.... Stubbing your toes. It has to be one of the most stupidly painful things possible!! The only thing you can do is hop around like an idiot, screaming swear words as loud as you can. Why, god, why?!?!

Anyway, I better go and do some study!! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and a fantasic week ahead!!

http://celtichouse.blogspot.com/ I still don't know how to do links on here... Lol!!!

I'll see you when I see you...

I woke softly,
To her eyes and her arms,
I know she couldn't have loved me more,
She did anyway,
I left the puzzle unfinished,
That last little piece wandering in the night,
Somewhere to be found,
She found it,
Sitting at the end of my bed,
Holding a little jagged picture of the sun setting upon a down day,
She reached out, my hand hardly having to move to touch her,
Closer than she had been before,
More understanding that I could have ever understood,
Her voice was gentle and her eyes full with the beauty of a million shooting stars,
So, she said...
"Honey, the last piece to your puzzle, you left it behind.....
I thought I would bring it back, to give you peace of mind."

"But why would you come back after I never said a word?...
After all the things I wished you'd heard?"

"Darling, words don't mean a thing to me....
you've become everything I knew you'd be....."

When the storm hangs overhead...

This storm is hanging overhead, these clouds will not part,
But I have this fire inside to burn them all away,
I'll burn them all away,

This love we had, whether it caused the storm or the fire,
it caused me to burn,
my soul to burn,

Oxygen fuels me,
every breath ignites me,
and every bit of oil added, time after time, only builds me up....

The closer I get to the edge,
the stronger my grip on the ledge,
I wont ever let go...

And when I watch those clouds advancing on me,
When I see their grey, heavy hands hovering over,
I scream out "Do you really love me??"

"Do you really love me?"

The world never says a word....

Rocking your world Friday!

Someone needs to show me how to get Virginia's "Rocking your world Friday" button on this thing!! he he!

Well, it is 4 in the morning (Friday morning) and I can't get to sleep... So I thought I would write my post.

This week, I am going to be looking to the little things, because they are what have kept me going. Firstly, I am grateful for my dogs, I know I have mentioned them before, but their faces really do brighten up my day. You can be in the worst of moods and Milly's little face (and the little dance she does!) take it all away for a few minutes.

I am grateful for my Grandma, it was her Birthday yesterday and even though she has passed, I know she is still around. I made her a Birthday cake, it was a love heart shaped sponge cake with jam and icing, was quite yummy if I say so myself... So, I hope you enjoyed Grandma!! I love you more and more each day... Happy Birthday.

I am finding it a little hard this week, but I will continue!!!! I am grateful for Art. I love looking at all different kinds of art, it really inspires me and makes me want to be better.

I am grateful for the knowledge that things will get better. No matter how hard things get, there is only one way to go and that is up. So, up we go!!!!

I am grateful for the hat my brothers' girlfriend (Emer) bought me. It is so cute and warm. I just had to post a picture!!

I am hoping next week will bring much better things, though, I am grateful I got the chance to live this week, because after all, life is something we should be grateful for everyday, no matter how good or bad your week has been.

Sorry if that post was a little depressing!!! I hope everyone has had a wonderful week and has a beautiful weekend ahead! Love to all!

Fi x x x x

We are all formed of frailty and error..

You know, we always seem to expect our flaws to be ignored and accepted but when it comes to accepting others flaws, we are pretty quick to judge and run away. There is nothing worse than realising your flaws, and knowing your flaws have caused huge problems for you that could have so easily been avoided if you had just been brave enough to take one look at yourself and realise "No, you are not perfect... but that is OK".

Everyone knows they have flaws, whether it be being insecure, or paranoid, or maybe even too guarded. It is when you see what effects the flaws can have on your life, then there is a problem. I don't think there is one person that can wake up and know for a fact they are perfect. I really like to think I am a good person, I like to think I am kind and caring, I would rather jump in front of a bus than see someone else get hit. This is all well and good, but those little traits you hold? and when they damage the ones you love? That is when you need to take a step back and realise you can't just snap and become aggressive when someone points out your flaws, because us, ourselves, are so fast to point out others. I have found myself so many times judging someone because of their negative points, speaking like I have nothing to work on at all. Speaking like I have reached perfection and everyone else hasn't got a clue.

I have come to realise I have got a lot of work to do on myself. It has finally hit me that everyone needs to stop pretending they are perfect, because the path to perfection requires one to take a long hard look at themselves, realise the negatives and work through them. There are no results without hard work, and if hard work includes having to sit down and understand that you have made mistakes, that you have messed up and that you have a lot of things to work on, then so be it.

I feel like I want a new canvas, one I can alter and fix up to be the picture I have always wanted. Now, we all know, no one is going to get handed a new canvas, the only option we have is to spend a long time working over the old one, to get it to a place where is looks quite beautiful. In the end, the canvas might look messy and untidy, but at least you can look at it and know you tried.

I am impatient, I am impulsive, I am sometimes very selfish, I am wreakless, I am scared, I am insecure and paranoid, I am weak, I am far too idealistic, I am inconsiderate....

I am also ready to accept that, No, I am not perfect, I am far from it. But that is OK.... Because nobody else is either.

As quote that someone very special shared with me:

"We are all formed of frailty and error; let us pardon reciprocally each other's folly--that is the first law of nature."

How can we expect to be forgiven, when we find it so hard to forgive others?

Rocking your world Friday!

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Friday again!!! I am getting nervous with these weeks flying by, I am moving country in a couple of weeks! eeekkk!!

Right! Things I am feeling positive about/ grateful for this week:

I am grateful Red and Dan arrived here safely on Wednesday, they flew over from England to spend Christmas two with us! (Christmas 2 is exactly what it says on the tin, a second christmas for friends who are practically family! We leave the tree up and exchange presents!) I can't wait for it, the party is tomorrow night!!!

I am also grateful to Red for letting me do her make-up and being so patient whilst I stuck jewels to her face.. lol! She rocked it, well, why wouldn't she, she is gorgeous!! Also, thanks to Michelle Campion for letting me do Era make up on her, I tell you, if you thought Marilyn Monroe was beautiful, wait till you see this girl!! I have the base of my portfolio done now, I just have to put it together!

I am loving my new hair cut (Half the side of my head is pretty much shaved... sounds crazy but looks great!)

I am grateful for Tea.... Yes, tea... It is so nice to come in out of the cold and have a nice cuppa!!! Love it!

I was in College last monday, and a Chanel artist was in, Dave, and he told me a I was "A pale beauty with fabulous eyelashes!" Which really made my day! Also, he complimented my eye make up!

I am grateful for John, He really brightens up my days, always there to make me giggle and smile. I am so lucky to know someone who knows me better than I know myself. He is just wonderful and I thank whoever is up there everyday for him! He rocks my whole week.... my whole life!

I QUIT MY JOB! The job I hated..... ... Yes, I may be unemployed, but dammit, I am happy!!!

And Oh my lord..... My favourite band "In flames" have been announced to play in the UK this year!!! I nearly had a heart attack when I found out!!!!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful week... and has a lovely weekend ahead!!! Take care!

Fi   x x x x x x x

Just take my word...

The tide might seem to be in on your shore,

But darling, take my word,

My hand is here,

I got a million anchors holding me down,

and an army standing behind,

We may not seem overly strong,

You may not see the unbreakable line we form,

But darling, take my word..

You will be swayed by the wind and dampened by the deep waters,

and the storms will linger overhead,

and when that lightening strikes, you will have my hands guarding your heart,

and a whisper of "Everything will be OK...."

Darling, just take my word....

A few more arty bits!

This is a piece I did a while back, I was originally designing my sleeve tattoo, then it ended up turning in to a full blown painting! Ah well! I really love green and pink together. Can you see the skull hiding? My mum didn't see it for a few minutes, then shrieked because I had "ruined" a beautiful painting of flowers... she never changes!

This is a little piece I did in memory of my Grandma, I wrote this poem first and wanted to make it a little prettier than just pen on paper! I remember writing this poem, it just came to me so clearly, word for word. It was like the words had been resting there and just surfaced on the day I needed some comfort. So, this is what I came up with! Hope you like it Grandma!

That's all for now, I really should be in bed! Night night! x x x

Rocking your world Friday!

So, it is Friday again! I tell you, these "Rocking your world Friday" posts really make you realise how quick time is passing!! Things I am grateful for/feeling positive about this week!

I am really grateful to my Brothers wife, Johanna, for letting me do my Bridal make-up project on her, she put her dress and veil on and everything! She is a life saver! Now that is two down, I have got evening, era and creative make-up to do yet! Eeeeekk!!

I am very grateful to my Dad for helping me out with my supplies for the course, he helped me pay for a beautiful new make-up case (it has got wheels and everything!!!) and it WAS NOT cheap..... Fanks Daddy!!!

Sleeping bags, yeah, I said it. I absolutely love sleeping bags! I am sleeping so well at the moment!! and plus, I really do enjoy feeling like a caterpillar.....

My Pikachu slippers and the necklace I ordered arrived (About a month late, but still!). The company that I bought the necklace from sent me the wrong item the first time, so when they sent the correct order out, I got two free pairs of earrings!

I am really grateful for having such wonderful people in my life. It is so lovely to know that they will be there for you no matter what, to know that they will always try to make you smile. My Fridays would rock a lot less without them!!

For health, it is terrifying having a health scare, it is such a relief to find you are ok!! Good health is something we should be grateful for everyday, and certainly something we should not take for granted!!

I am very grateful for having something I have always dreamed of...... You often think dreams can never come true, but you never know what is around the corner. Don't give up on them, even if they seem unrealistic, because I can reassure you, there is always a chance they will come true. Patience is key..... I managed it and I am one impatient little bugger!!

I hope everybody has had a wonderful week and I hope you all have a lovely weekend ahead!

Bye for now!! x x x

She sleeps..

She is assured that she will be alright,

But the light won't stop flickering,

A photo stuffed in her pocket,

Creased memories,

She weeps and watches the damp creep down the walls,

She sleeps....

Keeps her jewels clenched close to her chest,

Her skin still cold in the sun,

She sleeps...

whispers of the willow

I hear the trees ache at night, I hear them trying to grow,

Their roots anchoring them to the ground, reaching to the moon and grazing the stars,

I hear their leaves, trembling with fear of change,

"Stay the way you are..."

"Why, for I am only getting better?"

"I don't want you to change...."

"I'm bettering myself for you..."

New paintings!

Vivian's nightmare

The grey room

These are two pieces I have finished recently, I went up to the garage and found two pieces of wood and just went crazy! I really enjoyed painting on wood... Watch this space, I reckon there will be more!

I got a Blog Award!!

I popped on to my Blog this morning and saw that the lovely Virginia had passed on one of her four blog awards to me!! It put me in a great mood! So, I guess it is time for the list... 8 things about me.

1. I change my hair far too much, I have had it Blonde, brown, lilac, red, brown with blonde, blonde with red, Black with pink, Ginger.....and finally, I have settled with Black!

2. I have 8 tattoo's, which usually shocks people because you can only see about 2 of them! I have both feet tattooed, hip, back of neck, wrist, ribs, stomach and elbows!

3. The smell of Garlic and Onions frying is one of my favourite smells, even though I really do not like onions!

4. I used to do Irish dancing, I competed in shows (Feis) and one time, I came 2nd, meaning I would win a massive trophy. I was stood in the line and then the judge said he had calculated the results wrong, I had actually come 3rd.... No trophy for Fiona!!!

5. I have never known what I wanted to do, when I finished my exams I went through soooooo many different career ideas! Fashion designer, artist, veterinary nurse, retail manager, marine biologist, occupational therapist, psychologist.... you name it, I have considered it!! However, I finally settled on Make-Up artist! I am loving it!

6. I am ridiculously impatient and impulsive. I am trying to curb my impatience, mainly because it drives me crazy when I am trying to paint/make things! However, I love my impulsivity, it makes for an exciting life!!

7. I love Black and white photography/ paintings. Even with Tattoos, I have colour in two of them, even then it is a very small amount!

8. I have a very, very strange obsession with "The Legend of Zelda". It is like my imagination in a game. When I die, I would like to end up in Hyrule... My God, I am such a nerd!!!

So to pass my awards on, I was going to give Virginia another one, however, I think making her write another list would be a little bit cruel!! So, the awards go to....

http://whereismellymoosmind.blogspot.com/ -Melanie

http://jdarko-jdarko.blogspot.com/ -John

http://booshtales.blog.com/ - Claire Long

Ahhh, bugger it, I know she already got an award, but her Blog is amazing!! You don't have to write another list though!! http://celtichouse.blogspot.com/

Happy Saturday everybody!!!

Rocking your world Friday!

I am joining in on the "Rocking your world Friday"!!!

I am grateful for the Blanket Catriona gave me to sleep with last night, I am not kidding, it was THE most amazing blanket I have ever encountered! Ohhh, it was so... I think they only word I can use to describe it is.. Poofy. I had a wonderful sleep!

I am really grateful for my Dad, always willing to be my taxi man. He is never late, not even by a minute! He really is a star...

I am grateful for our water coming back on! We had been without it all over the Christmas period! I had such a long bath today with every bubble bath imaginable!

I am very grateful for my parents finally accepting that I am moving country, also for actually starting to help me!! It took them a while to adjust to the idea, however, they are really trying to be positive now!

To all my friends that are helping me with my make-up portfolio, I couldn't do it without you guys, I am just hoping a manage to get a good grade with it! I am really worried about my Exams, mainly because I am terrible at studying, I am much better with visual learning and practical work!

I am grateful for my two little doggies, Molly and Milly, that always bring a smile to my face. Who could resist those faces?!?!

I am so happy my presents to John and Virginia arrived, I was getting so panicked that they had got lost in the post!!! I just want my Pikachu slippers to arrive now!!

I want to say a Thankyou for the "Celtic House" blog for the Rocking your world Friday posts! They really brighten up your day!

A new start!

I never really write on this blog, it is usually just a little storage space for my poems! Today, However, I am in a chatty mood! It is the 5th of January 2011 and I am feeling so positive about life at the moment. This year is bringing huge changes and I honestly cannot wait to immerse myself in life.

These last few years, I became very unmotivated, numb almost. I lost all ambition and all hope for the future. I had hobbies that I loved, they all just seemed to disappear. I had passions and interests, they all faded away. It was like I had just become a body, an empty shell.

In the last couple of months, my love of live has been reignited. Mostly due to meeting an absolutely wonderful person that has changed my life in more ways than you could imagine. I now wake in the mornings, take a deep breath and smile. I find joy in the smallest things, for example, this morning I went to feed my two dogs, Milly (the smallest of the two) was poking her nose through the fence, each time she did, it made her sneeze! It lifted my heart so much! It is good to know that in times of darkness, there is always a little ray of light waiting to brighten your day. You just have to be willing to open your eyes to see it.

I feel like I have a new page to draw upon, I felt a sense of relief as the new year came in. All I know is that 2011 is going to ROCK!!! I hope it does for everybody else too!